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Crossroads : Chapter 4: I never told you

It had been a while since the last time he'd seen her. Once again, the awkward feeling whenever he was around her returned. He could never look straight at her whenever they met each other. He knew if he'd looked at her, he would have to use up all his strength to hold himself back and not run to her, hold on to her with all his might and never let her go.

But he knew he couldn't do that.

The truth was...

they were once a couple - a couple with pure hearts, a couple who was so alike, a couple who went through the same experiences as each, a couple who thought everything would be alright as long as they had each other, a couple who was young and fragile, a couple who truly loved each other.

Back in 2007, Hyuna had left the Wonder Girls and moved to another company under JYP Entertainment, CUBE. Rain had set up his own company and he had begun to search for younger talents to form a new idol group. It had only been three months since Joon had joined the company. Being one of the few trainees in J.TUNE Camp at the time, the managers and trainers drilled him with long hours of dance practice and vocal lessons. He had no time for himself.

One day, Rain decided to bring Joon over to CUBE to meet some of his old friends who were directors there. They complimented Joon on his good looks and kept insisting that he looked like Rain. He wasn't used to receiving praises. He asked for permission to walk around the building because he wanted to look around.

As he walked past the corridors, he heard sounds coming from one of the rooms. Michael Jackson's Dangerous was blasting away. He peered in and saw a young girl showing off her popping and locking moves that were considered difficult for someone her age. She was concentrating on her own reflection in the mirror, working alone to perfect her moves. There was a choreographer teaching two other young trainees.

Joon couldn't tear his eyes off her. He had always admired people who danced well. But there was something about her moves that caused him to stay glued to the door, peeking through. He felt like he'd seen them somewhere before.

Her concentration was broken when she spotted him staring at her through the mirror's reflection. She turned and their eyes met.

When he saw her face, he finally remembered. He'd seen her performing on television with the newly debuted Wonder Girls. She was the girl who had left the group recently. He recalled watching her solo dance break during the intro to their debut performance. He'd become a fan ever since. He never understood why she left the group. It had only been months since she'd debuted. There was no news about her ever since. Nobody knew if she was still in JYPE. Now, he finally found out that Hyuna was back to just a trainee in a different company.

CUBE... I've never heard of this company before. I don't remember hearing Jihoon hyung mentioning it. Why are there so few trainees? Why-

Joon's thoughts were interrupted when he noticed that she was standing right in front of him. He didn't remember seeing her walking towards him.

She bowed politely and greeted Joon. "Hello. Are you a new trainee here?" She asked with a cheerful smile.

She looks cuter than I remembered. Lost in his own thoughts, Joon didn't hear a single word she said. He was starstruck.

"Hello?" She snapped her fingers several times in front of his face and waved.

She managed to snap him out of his trance again. "Oh... Um... Hi. My name is Lee Joon. I came with Jihoon- I mean, Rain sunbaenim." He stuttered.

"Rain?!" She was stunned.

"Yeah. I'm from the company he'd formed recently. Nice to meet-" Before he could finish his sentence, she pushed him aside and ran out of the practice room, heading towards the office. He was confused. But he followed along anyway.

He walked into the office and saw Rain and Hyuna in each other's arms. "I missed you, oppa." Tears rolled down her cheeks.

"How have you been? Things must have been hard on you, huh?" Rain said with a sweet, father-like voice. He pulled her away when he noticed Joon standing at the doorway, looking like a lost and confused little boy. He decided to introduce them.

"Hyuna, come meet my up and coming protege." He pulled her over to Joon and smiled.

"Yeah. We kinda met earlier at the practice room." She bowed again. "Hi, I'm Hyuna. Please look after me well."

"I know. I've seen you on TV." The curiosity was burning inside him. He couldn't hold back his tongue any longer. "May I ask you a question? I hope this wouldn't sound rude."

Hyuna nodded.

He spent a few moments longer trying to pick the right words. "May I know the reason you left the Wonder Girls?"

Rain slapped Joon's arm lightly. "Hey! It's not your place to ask that question!"

Hyuna laughed. "No, oppa. It's okay." She turned to Joon and then looked down to the floor. "Well, let's just say I had some health complications. That's all." She looked back at Rain, who was showing giving her support through his eyes.

Health complications? Is she alright?

Seemingly reading his thoughts, she blurted, "It's nothing big! It's not like I'm dying or anything. I'm doing great here in this company anyway." She took a quick glimpse around the office. "So, you sound like you'd been monitoring me when I was with the Wonder Girls. Are you a fan of mine?" She smiled cheekily.


"I'm sorry I called you out at this hour. You must have just gotten off a recording." Hyuna spoke softly, still looking down on the ground.

"Aren't you going to ask who it is?"

"No. I don't think I want to hear it now." Her voice cracked. She broke out in tears all of a sudden. Joon didn't understand what was wrong.

"Do you want to talk about it?"

"No. I just... I just want you to be here. That's all. If you think this is pointless, you can leave." tears rolling down her cheeks, glistening in the full moon.

He knew asking more questions wouldn't help. She must have been facing a lot of pressure and stress lately. He'd been monitoring her a lot. He never stopped. Recently, netizens have been criticising Hyuna for her overly sexual performances and dance moves. Most of the comments were directed to her age being inappropriate for that sort of moves. He thought it was ridiculous. Netizens... you can't live with them, you can’t live without them.

He stayed still and watched her as she sobbed. The urge in him to grab her in his arms and tell her that everything would be alright almost killed him. But once again, his conscience told him to stay put.

The two of them swayed on the swings gently, under the refuge of the moonlight for the rest of the night without whispering another word to each other.


As Joon drove him, he couldn't take his mind of the image of Hyuna's puffy eyes, tear-stained face and the sound of her sobbing voice.

"This song is dedicated to all those who may have missed a moment. I just want to encourage all of you to cherish the moment. In life, there should be no regrets. Don't let those moments go to waste. Enjoy, Colbie Caillat's latest song, I Never Told You" The DJ's voice interrupted Joon's thoughts.

But I never told you, what I should have said
No, I never told you, I just held it in

And now, I miss everything about you
Can’t believe that I still want you
After all the things we’ve been through
I miss everything about you, without you

Listening to the lyrics, something burned in Joon's heart.

Slowly, tears began rolling down his cheeks.

I never told you...
Tags: crossroads, fanfic

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